Admissions
Last night I wasn’t feeling well at all. This morning there were signs of trouble, regarding baby and crohns. James took me to the emergency room. I was sure I was miscarrying. After a few hours, lots of labs, and three ultrasounds, we had some information. I was having, as we thought, a major Crohns […]
Everything is different now
It is amazing how in one instant everything can feel like it changed. Just days ago I was planning how I would manage to dress properly for canoing when my wet suit doesn’t fit any longer. I had written a list of projects we needed to accomplish to prepare for biking, canoing, camping and hiking […]
The Calm before The Storm
Typically, when a crisis strikes, I am able to stay calm, help to find a solution, ensure that everyone is ok and help everyone make it through, make sure that the mess following is straightened out, and then I go home. Our recent loss was similar. After the initial shock and disbelief, I was angry […]
Moving on, without Moving?
Emotionally, I think I am doing quite well handling our loss. I feel like I was open enough with James throughout the pregnancy that I was not alone in understanding the weight of the change and the loss we experienced. His tremendous support and understanding have made the emotional burden bearable. I feel emotionally ready […]
Survival vs. Sorrow
The alarm went off at 6:45 this morning, signaling that it was time for me to get ready to go. I slowly sat up in bed, urging James to awaken, feeling overwhelmed and under-prepared for the morning ahead of me. We readied ourselves and drove to the Emergency Room. The guy that checked me in […]
10 1/2 Weeks & Counting
So I’m officially 10 weeks and almost 5 days pregnant. That means: – My first trimester is almost over – The baby’s probably around 1 1/2 inches long – The sex of the baby is probably already determined and developed, though we might not be able to see it on ultrasound for a while yet. […]
UP and DOWN and UP and DOWN
So, contrary to popular believe, it is normal for most women to lose weight in their first trimester. This has worked out to my benefit because although my stomach is plumping a bit and I’ve bloated enough to make me feel quite pregnant, I continue to lose weight and doc pretty much aoks my eating […]
Dinosaur Burps
That’s what I sounded like this morning… a dinosaur burping. I think the flu has finally passed. Those who know me will not be suprised to know I went to a gun show and outdoor show and dog park Saturday, consuming a cheese dog, nachos, peanut butter fudge and lanjaegers. This is all, of course, […]
I feel pregnant, oh so pregnant…
So, I had reflux and gas pains and needing to pee constantly all night long. (I guess creamed chip beef for dinner was a bad idea). I tried eating yogurt for breakfast – usually calms it down – didn’t work. Lots of rumbly in my tumbly today. I have to leave for work in about […]