I just watched a commercial that I love every time. It is one by the Foundation for a better life. A little boy is missing in a theatre and the curtains open and he is playing a simple tune on the piano on stage. The star pianist of the evening walks out and tells him […]
It is amazing how in one instant everything can feel like it changed. Just days ago I was planning how I would manage to dress properly for canoing when my wet suit doesn’t fit any longer. I had written a list of projects we needed to accomplish to prepare for biking, canoing, camping and hiking […]
Typically, when a crisis strikes, I am able to stay calm, help to find a solution, ensure that everyone is ok and help everyone make it through, make sure that the mess following is straightened out, and then I go home. Our recent loss was similar. After the initial shock and disbelief, I was angry […]
Emotionally, I think I am doing quite well handling our loss. I feel like I was open enough with James throughout the pregnancy that I was not alone in understanding the weight of the change and the loss we experienced. His tremendous support and understanding have made the emotional burden bearable. I feel emotionally ready […]
The alarm went off at 6:45 this morning, signaling that it was time for me to get ready to go. I slowly sat up in bed, urging James to awaken, feeling overwhelmed and under-prepared for the morning ahead of me. We readied ourselves and drove to the Emergency Room. The guy that checked me in […]
I have just returned home and settled down enough to update. The sonogram showed an empty sac. The doctor is pretty positive that I am miscarrying. Since nothing is showing up, including a heartbeat, it would appear that the baby has already been re-absorbed (great mental image huh) and this has been in the works […]
So I’m officially 10 weeks and almost 5 days pregnant. That means: – My first trimester is almost over – The baby’s probably around 1 1/2 inches long – The sex of the baby is probably already determined and developed, though we might not be able to see it on ultrasound for a while yet. […]
That’s what I sounded like this morning… a dinosaur burping. I think the flu has finally passed. Those who know me will not be suprised to know I went to a gun show and outdoor show and dog park Saturday, consuming a cheese dog, nachos, peanut butter fudge and lanjaegers. This is all, of course, […]
So… last summer (2006), my parents finally came to visit me here in Fairbanks Alaska. On the day before they left, I took a pregnancy test – 3 actually – probably more because I’ve wanted kids my whole life than because I had symptoms, but who cares why – I took the tests. They came […]