Dunno What to Say…

Today I feel better than each day before. I am still gagging on drainage from that killer flu before (though I’m told I’ll probably not kick it because congestions is a common pregnancy thing…) and needing to pee about 4 times a night. However, I’m much less bloated, less gas pain, more energy, and less top tenderness. Part of me worries because I feel better… and though I enjoy being able to eat full meals again for a while, not to mention enjoying my comfort foods, I’m not too excited about not feeling as pregnant. The maternity pants that fit perfectly last week are a little loose now and I’m not sure how I feel about it.

We went to Barnes and Noble tonite to look at pregnancy / baby books. There were a few things I liked. I found a pregnancy journal that was cute but my first feeling is that I wouldn’t want to write in it until the baby came because if the pregnancy doesn’t keep, if baby doesn’t make it, I’ll not be able to use it next time. I could write all of the answers to the questions in a notebook separately. Something tells me I won’t really relax until I have our child in my arms. Part of me doesn’t think it’ll happen, but James says my worrying constantly proves I’m still pregnant. 🙂

So… there were two cute books there at the store that I thought about buying for my parents or James’ parents. One was a book from Grandmom – lots of questions about her childhood, photos of her, neat info… the other was about Granddad. Especially because our kid is going to be growing up in Fairbanks and so far away from my family, I thought they’d be really neat, but is that something the mom gets the grandparents? I don’t want to take the fun away from them. I’m not sure what the etiquite there is.

I had a HUGE serving (if you can call it a serving) of Creamed Chip Beef for dinner – I’m STUFFED! And tired. My back is bothering me a lot and I’m super stiff, joints are killing me.

Well, that’s my moping/venting/whatever. I’ll update tommorow!