Wee Little Fingers, Eyes are Shut Tight
I take a lot of photos. Not as many as I did when my son was first born. They are so much easier to photograph when they can’t squirm out of your arms or crawl away… or, for that matter, run. A startled baby responding to a flash is a completely different creature than a
Welcoming Baby – 1 Month
Talk about ready to have this little man. This is what I looked like before he finally arrived! He would kick around my heart and I would feel like my whole body was beating. So strange. I was so anxious for him to come. He even stayed in longer than expected. That was a surprise
Dreaming of Food
Just about everyone who knows me at all knows I’m a foodie. I have my favorite foods, my favorite restaurants, my favorite smells… The last few weeks I didn’t have cravings per say…. nothing sounded awesome. Certain foods sat better than others, but I didn’t have a specific wish list. Then the dreams began. I
Bring on the Grilled Cheese…
A great friend of mine told me yesterday that I should savor the breaks from pregnancy symptoms. I have thought about that idea… though I find it very challenging. I am trying to remember that if the pregnancy ends prematurely, me feeling better is better than me feeling worse… and that if it is going
Is it hot in here, or is it just me?
Every person is different, and every pregnancy different. For me, though I’ve been pregnant before, it was during a stage in my life where I was struggling with Chrohns, unknowingly and because I miscarried, a “normal” pregnancy would presumably be a little different. I find myself clinging to the very little information that I am familiar
Is there such a thing as too much information?
I just watched a commercial that I love every time. It is one by the Foundation for a better life. A little boy is missing in a theatre and the curtains open and he is playing a simple tune on the piano on stage. The star pianist of the evening walks out and tells him
One Day at a Time
I’m sitting on the couch in the camper watching John & Kate + 8. It’s one of the older episodes where they visit Disney World. Carolina is parked next to me, sleeping like the angel she has been all day. Jake is hiding out in the bedroom. I think he picks up on something being
Admissions
Last night I wasn’t feeling well at all. This morning there were signs of trouble, regarding baby and crohns. James took me to the emergency room. I was sure I was miscarrying. After a few hours, lots of labs, and three ultrasounds, we had some information. I was having, as we thought, a major Crohns
Everything is different now
It is amazing how in one instant everything can feel like it changed. Just days ago I was planning how I would manage to dress properly for canoing when my wet suit doesn’t fit any longer. I had written a list of projects we needed to accomplish to prepare for biking, canoing, camping and hiking
The Calm before The Storm
Typically, when a crisis strikes, I am able to stay calm, help to find a solution, ensure that everyone is ok and help everyone make it through, make sure that the mess following is straightened out, and then I go home. Our recent loss was similar. After the initial shock and disbelief, I was angry